Loss and Mourning
Carol E. Watkins, M.D.
Glenn Brynes. Ph.D., M.D.
Must We Grieve?
Loss and Stillbirth
An Adolescent Dies
a Meaningful Memorial for Your Friend
Families Mourn Together
To Others About Your Illness
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When we love someone and they die,
it can feel devastating. This seems to be a universal part of our human
experience. But why do we have to suffer like this?
If we humans lived our lives
separately from others, needing and relying on no one but ourselves, then the
loss or death of another would have little impact. But we are social creatures.
Compared to other animals, we spend a remarkably long period of our lives—18
or more years—living with and depending on our parents. We are born into
families. We grow and live surrounded and supported by our social environment.
We make friends with, go to school with and work with our neighbors. It is part
of our makeup to form strong bonds of caring and affection with other people.
The forces that draw us to others are so deeply entwined in our nature. We
respond to these forces in powerful and seemingly involuntary ways. We feel
these pressures keenly when we are lonely and bereft of companionship; when we
feel ashamed and fear social disapproval; and especially when we fall in love
and long for the love of another person.
At their best, these deeply rooted
feelings encourage us to help and protect each other. The resulting bonds bring
us help when we need it. It is precisely these feelings that have made our
incredibly rich, complex human culture possible. Without it we would be spending
our lives trying furtively to gather and hunt enough food to keep ourselves
alive from one day to the next. We would have neither the reason nor the ability
to pass on what we have learned to others. If we were hurt, we would have only
the wisdom of our bodies to heal us.
But we are not solitary, and the
price we pay for our attachments is vulnerability—the risk of loss. Because we
depend on other people—because they do matter to us—they occupy a special
place in our hearts. They are like a part of ourselves and cannot be
replaced…any more than our hand or some fond memories could be. When someone
we love is gone from our lives, it is as if a piece of us has been torn away.
The loss rends the fabric of our lives and the wound must be repaired. Grief is
that process by which our minds heal this hurt. For us to go on with our lives
and again risk caring about others, we need to let go of those we love who are
no longer with us. Through this process of mourning, we gradually accept the
loss. We allow the dead to be gone from our lives.
At the end of mourning, there is
still sadness, but it is a wistful sadness that is tempered by the happy
memories that we still possess.
Empty Womb: Pregnancy Loss
E. Watkins, M.D.
Pregnancy is often
a time of great hope for the future. The parents decorate a nursery, pick out
names and fantasize about future years as their baby grows from childhood into
adolescence and adulthood. The start of a new generation may draw in special
attention from extended family. The traditions and expectations of relatives add
drama and complexity to the process.
More often than
one might expect, the dream is shattered. Something goes wrong and the family
suffers a miscarriage or a stillbirth. About one in four women miscarry at some
stage in their lives. Many people feel that a miscarriage or stillbirth is going
to be less distressing than the loss of an older child. After all, no one has
gotten to know the unborn child. The miscarriage may mean different things to
particular families. To some, the loss feels much greater because they
experience the loss of a whole lifetime of memories that will never be.
Often the mother feels isolated in her loss. No one else felt the early
physical changes, or the first tiny kick. The mother may also feel that her body
has somehow let her baby and her family down. Her husband and relatives may not
have experienced the baby as a separate person.
In the case of a
stillbirth, it often helps the parents to see their baby, hold her, take
photographs and give her a name. Even a deformed or premature baby may have
features that resemble a parent or relative. If the pictures cause too much
pain, they can be stored away and revisited later. Religious rituals associated
with birth and death express love, and honor the uniqueness of the lost child.
ask the parents how they could help. Unless the parents ask, relatives should
not try to smooth things over by disposing of the nursery items. Some parents
may experience this as a denial of the reality of the loss.
Friends should not
expect the parents to grieve on any given schedule. Pregnancy loss means
different things to different couples. For some, the grief continues at an
attenuated level for years or even a lifetime.
Friend is Still a Kid: Kids Don’t Die!
Your friend, is dead. The words
sound so final, so cold. Maybe it was your classmate, boyfriend or confidant.
Maybe he died from cancer, a car accident, or by his own hand. Somehow you
can’t bring yourself to believe it. He wasn’t even 18. Aren’t your parents
and grandparents supposed to die first?
If you lose a young friend, you may
feel a mixture of emotions that will come as a surprise to you. Some feelings
and thoughts are fleeting, and some may stay with you for a lifetime. Everyone
experiences grief differently, but many pass through several stages of grief.
These are denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. Some people
cycle through some of these stages several times as different experiences or
phases of life remind them of the loss.
Some who are experiencing denial or
anger may want to rid themselves of possessions that remind them of the lost
friend. If you can’t stand to look at certain objects, put them away for
safe-keeping and wait a few weeks or months before deciding what to do with
them. These mementos may be a source of comfort later. Talk to friends. Share
funny and happy stories about your friend’s life. This helps make the loss
more real and helps make sense of the death by celebrating the life. If you have
questions about how the death occurred, ask the friend’s family or the school
You may feel plagued by feelings of
responsibility or “What ifs?” Tell yourself that you are not responsible for
your friend’s death. Cry and shout if you need to do so. Some find comfort in
action. Join with others to create a memorial or to raise awareness about the
illness that led to your friend’s death.
Take care of yourself. Some
adolescents become depressed and even suicidal themselves after the death of a
friend. Talk, write or compose music. Keep active. If you feel that you are
losing control, seek adult guidance.
a Meaningful Memorial for a Friend
E. Watkins, M.D.
Often it is
difficult to make sense of the death of a child or adolescent. One of the ways
to deal with grief is to take action. By doing so, you can celebrate and
memorialize the life of the friend you have lost.
There are many
kinds of memorials. Every culture, from ancient to modern, has developed unique
ways for the living to pay tribute to the dead. Some believe that these rituals
give special benefits to the deceased, but others see the funeral and memorial
arrangements as powerful source of comfort and support for the living. The most
common in our culture is the grave marker, which provides a specific place for
family and friends to visit. But there are many other types of memorials that
you can create yourself. These may be based on your interests and talents or
your relationship to your dead friend.
You and your
friends may organize your own meaningful memorial service with different
individuals providing anecdotes, and simply a place to weep and laugh together.
Photographs, videotape, or sports items may serve as reminders of your
If you are
artistically or musically talented, you might compose music or a painting to
express your grief, anger or love. A particular painting or musical arrangement
may evolve and change as you move through your grief. If you write, you may
embark on a series of stories or poems.
Your school or
place of worship may allow you to build a memorial garden. Working in the earth
can be therapeutic, and planting can express hope in the future.
If you do build a garden, be sure that someone makes a commitment to
maintain it. Weeds and neglect do not make a good memorial.
Anger is a form of
energy. Can you transform this energy into something strong and positive? You
might organize a group to promote awareness of the condition that caused the
friend’s death. If he died as a result of drunk driving, you might promote
SADD (Students Against Drunk Driving.) You might organize discrete rides home
for classmates who become intoxicated at parties.
commemorating a friend’s life may not mean that you agree with the way he
died. Seeking to understand someone’s reasons for drunk driving or suicide is
not the same as condoning a self-destructive act.
Finally, your own
life can be a memorial. You bear
within you the rich, bittersweet lessons learned from your friend’s short life
Families Mourn Together
Brynes, Ph.D., M.D.
In order to
understand bereavement, we need to make the distinction between grief and
mourning. Grief is a person’s internal experience, thoughts and feelings
related to the experience of a great loss. Mourning is the external expression
of one’s grief. Thus, a person may experience extremely painful grief but,
because of a need to appear stoic, may not mourn.
Grief and mourning
are intensely personal and unique experiences. We often refer to stages of
grief, but these often do not occur in an orderly progression. Depending on the
situation and the individuals involved, one may not experience some stages, or
may cycle in and out of the same emotional state several times.
A major loss often
brings up echoes of past losses. If the family members still have intense
unresolved grief, it may complicate the way that they mourn..
Loss often happens
in a family context. The family members grieve and mourn individually and as a
group. The method of death, sudden or the culmination of a long illness is an
important factor. A sudden or violent death may be particularly difficulty for
the family to process because of the intense anger often involved. “It
didn’t have to happen.” However even if the death is the long expected
release from a painful illness, it can still be a powerful experience.
If a parent dies,
the children may experience a double loss. One parent has died and the other is
too overwhelmed to provide much nurturance. At this time, extended family and
the community can step in to support the grieving family.
Marriages may be
strained and even fall apart under the strain of death and mourning. Spouses may
grieve differently and may resent the way that the partner behaves. Each may be
too overwhelmed to reach out to the other.
non-traditional family structures may face additional complexities in their
process of mourning. They may be denied legal protection afforded to other
families. Church and extended family may not recognize their grief.
Mourning, though a
painful process can also be a way for families to grow together. Petty conflicts
seem less important in the face of loss. Relationships seem more precious
because they are fragile and impermanent. Family members may learn to support
each other and truly listen.
To Others About Your Illness
E. Watkins, M.D.
When you first hear the news that
you have a serious illness, the first reaction is often to shut it out of
awareness. Denial is not all bad. In limited amounts, it may serve a protective
function. However, you must eventually take a careful look at the situation. At
such a time, it may become helpful and even necessary to talk to friends and
loved ones about your illness and your life plans.
Many of us are not used to sharing
deeply personal feelings with others. Our society has tended to avoid open
discussion of illness and dying. Should you share your concerns with others? If
you express your fears, will it make them come true? Will your talk of illness
and medical procedures burden your friends and relatives? Will they become
embarrassed if you start to cry?
Many people are loath to reveal
their true wants and needs. However, you may discover that others may be
wondering what you want. They are often happy to get a clear message from you.
They may be at a loss as to what to say to you. If you bring up the subject of
your illness, it breaks the ice and may eliminate an awkward barrier. You may
start to cry. This is not necessarily bad. It may actually make it easier for
both of you to express your intense emotions. Discussing your illness or
impending death with someone else may lead to a new and special sense of
closeness. Crises can strip away artificial barriers and help us focus on what
we really value in each other.
When you confront a serious health
crisis, you need support. Friends and relatives can provide that. Some of your
thoughts and feelings may seem grotesque or morbid. If your friend is able to
hear your concerns, he or she may reassure you that these concerns are normal.
You may have to make significant life decisions. Discussing these decisions
aloud with a confidant may help you clarify what you truly want to do.
When you talk to someone about your
illness, be open about any strong feelings you experience or that you feel your
friend is showing. This ultimately eases any sense of awkwardness. You do not
always have to use words to express your thoughts or feelings. Silence, hugs, or
holding hands may express a great deal. Tell the other person what he or she has
meant to you. Be open about any regrets for past actions or omissions.
Every moment in a person’s life
carries the potential for growth and a new sense of meaning. You always hope for
a reprieve or even a cure, but whether or not it comes, you can still experience
growth personally and in closeness to others.
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E. Watkins, M.D.
Glenn Brynes, Ph.D., M.D.